dirt clustit 90/20 (truth/bullshit ratio): My Last apology: evidentally I have a serious problem

Saturday, June 26, 2010

My Last apology: evidentally I have a serious problem

I would invite people to read yesterday's copy of The Register Guard. I guess I have a very sick mind because I while reading the paper yesterday (this is very hard to admit so please no teasing) but after reading the paper I found many articles (a lot!) had a very specific innuendo.

Kind of like the way I went a little bit nuts a week or two back claiming the newspaper "told me" that the "start" of it all was today (THAT day) when I declared I was on a spiritual path fulfilling my destiny doing what I was supposed to do. That all the signs were right there written out in the newspaper on Friday (the Aha moments, the end of all the crap, the "beginning", everything blooming, the sign)

Well, if you read yesterday's paper 6/26/2010 and nobody else picks up on the message I thought I received (though like I said just a "theme" or ways the words could be taken be people who are different from most people in that their thought processes are more aligned with my strange ways) If nobody else seems to be affecting with similar after thoughts or during thoughts while reading the paper then I have no other choice but to accept that I am the source of it all. Although I honestly do not know how i will fit a fourth type of twelve step support group meetings. Even if it is regarding a completely different topic of my problem behavior.

I am hoping everyone will be satisfied with my admission that it was all me taking things that were not implied to be as if they were, for my mistake I am sorry. But I honestly cannot take on anymore extra meetings (I barely made it to everything I committed to this past week and I did almost cancel on a friend) Yes my eyes and appetite were bigger than I am finding myself to have the energy to be excited about.

and I PROMISE YOU IT IS NOT YOU, IT IS ME and just a simple matter of taking on too many commitments to regularly meet with people (it should be known that I do feel slightly set-up though when I ran my mouth saying I would have no problem keeping up)

I will keep my word, and honor to continue to do all I said I would be please, maybe you could show me some mercy and back down, and it IS COMPLETELY OK if you ever want to cancell for ANY REASON. To be honest I sort of really only planned on you honoring 75% of what you said you wanted to do.

AND YES I RAN MY MOUTH AND WAS BEING VERY ARROGANT, I admit it i said, and if I drop dead keeping my commitments it is on your hands.

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****updated 6/28/2010***** due to the fact that I get a little strange, I get a little accusatory of persons who honestly have clean names from the accusation in my words trying to place blame. Sorry bout that it happens sometimes. Due to lost trust from bad experiences in my past it creeps up to bite me so just know that if you read some post that goes on and on blaming people that there have been times that the people who deserve the blame are ficticuous and exist only in my head (nothing to get worked up about) and if something I wrote and posted anywhere (not just here but anywhere, another place or a comment at yours) if something makes you uncomfortable I would love to talk about and clarify things because unless you intentionally harm others for pleasure and that is not the kink they are in to, there is enough bad shit going down in this world and NOBODY needs any added discomfort so I honestly would NOT like you to feel the way (unless of course that IS the kink you are in to)

If you want to know something about me and want a serious answer let me know. I am honest and will not deceive you.

Be careful of what you read here, most if not all content is NOT meant to be taken seriously (so take it with a grain of salt), most of it is when I am feeling manically up or the same but down. It should be very apparent witch is witch.

if you cannot tell then I was probably in between (the flat and boring posts are me coming from in between)

If I complement you or your work it was sincere, if I say something stupid, way over the top ridiculous, or seem overly flirty and it pisses you off just tell me or go ahead and swat me down, you don't have to filter your words cause I would much rather know your boundaries so that I don't cross them. I'm just a bee flying around from blog to blog many times randomly. I am basically just a wandering busy bee doing his work, all I see is flowers so don't mind me.

when I do piss you off just be careful about coming back to my home and the nest riled up. If I piss you off say something, yelling or any language is fine as long as you just let me know, once you do I think you'll find that I will make every attempt to fix it, or make my wrong right.